‘The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him. For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.’ Romans 8: 16-18
My honey and I met at a 300 club dinner almost 13 years ago. A blind set up by his niece/nephew and my niece. I was hooked right away, although he probably couldn’t tell because I barely spoke a word! I had a serious issue with being shy. I still do but I push past it.
When we met, I was already divorced for 10 years, while his divorce was much more recent. Made final just 9 months before. Along with that comes a lot of emotions and although I hate the term ‘baggage’.
We both had and in some areas, still do have baggage. Things that hurt us and we need to work on. It’s one of the many reasons I am so grateful that God loves us enough not to keep us where we are. I don’t know why I still get surprised on how God works. The amount of love and grace He has for us is so humbling. I have to wonder why He would go out of His way to set circumstances up for our benefit. Who am I that I deserve that?
God is funny though, when I first began writing this particular post I was going to write about things that hurt my honey then God began to raise up issues I need to deal with. One day last week, on the way into work, some past memories came to mind. Things that still hurt a bit emotionally. Well, if I’m being honest, a lot more than a bit. I don’t regret my life but there are some experiences that I do sometimes wish were different. That I had better experiences with when I had my kids and where I wish I was able to do better for them.
Although most of me wouldn’t change anything, because I KNOW that I am who I am because of each aspect of my past, but still… my heart hurts for my 19 year old self that didn’t experience certain things. I realize too that part of that memory very well may have been brought up by the enemy. The enemy who wants to ‘steal, kill and destroy.’ He wants to steal the joy that I have now with my honey. He wants to steal my healed relationships and we wants to destroy my life. It’s my choice as to if I allow him to do that.
I am thankful for my God who reminds me who I am in Him. I am a child of the Most High God. Regardless of what anyone else says…I am LOVED. And it is His love that gives me Hope on my darkest days.
I think we all wish at times that life would just be easy. No issues, no pain, no fear. That’s not what God promises us. He does promise that He will never leave us. He will go through those difficult days with us…that with Him we will have the strength to go through anything. When we bring our burdens to Him, into the Light of His presence we take away the power from the evil one and place it in the Mighty right hand of God…Where we WILL find victory.
I don’t know what you may be going through. Lost relationships, financial difficulties, health issues… lean into Him my friend. Lay all your hurts, fears and frustrations at His precious feet. He is waiting there for YOU. You may not feel it but He knows YOUR name. He knows what YOU are going through, what your deepest fears and your biggest dreams.
He loves you. He shed His blood for you.
I pray His blessings and His strength over you. May you find comfort and peace in His presence.
With lots of love,