Looking back I get aggravated a bit with myself because I was able to see, even then, that when I spent time at church worshipping God I always felt better and stronger.
You see, it reminded me that it is all too easy to sit in our pain. To wallow in our grief, our anger, our confusion on why what happened, happened.
The really interesting thing about this is, it will never be fully attained. He is always striving forward to being a better and stronger man than he was at that moment.
There are some people that will continue to speak of how they doubt themselves in order to get compliments from others. Now, although my ladies bless me tremendously with their support and words of encouragement, it is not why I share with them my doubts and struggles. I share with them because they continue to guide my heart and mind back toward God.
For the last few years the last note I make on most of my daily journal entries is ‘My life is yours God. Use me.’ And for the most part I mean it. Then the “Buts” come along.
It can be overwhelming and frightening. But I know we have a God that loves us. Through Him we have HOPE in this situation. When I checked my email earlier this morning I found this scripture in Exodus. And it fits so well.