Christianity, faith

Doubting Tara…I Mean Thomas

‘Then Gideon said to God, “Do not let Your anger burn against me that I may speak once more; please let me make a test once more with the fleece, let it now be dry only on the fleece, and let there be dew on all the ground.” God did so that night; for it was dry only on the fleece, and dew was on all the ground.’ Judges 6:39-40

I hope I’m not the only one here but my faith can be like a yo-yo. One day it’s strong and I feel like I can take on the world and the next I can feel like the slightest breath of wind would knock me over. That is one reason I like the story of Gideon so much. It actually makes me laugh. As funny as it may seem to me it also give me Hope.

You see, Gideon was the weakest of his family. A family that was least in his clan in Manasseh. And this caused him to feel like he couldn’t be used by God. But our God is so AWESOME. He, so often, uses those who feel like the ‘least’ and the ‘weakest’ around. He used Abraham, Moses, Rahab, David, Gideon, Peter, Paul…Thomas and many more! The entire Bible and the Gospel shows that God will use us, regardless of who we are, who we think we are, or who others think we are…We just need to ‘Be Still’ and let Him work in our lives. We need to realize that we cannot do things, lives, on our own. We need Him.

Gideon felt like this too. He felt like..’who am I that God would use me.’ He was so unsure that who he was hearing was God that he put God to the test. He asked Him to do a little miracle with a fleece. First he asked…’I’ll put the fleece on the threshing floor-if , in the morning, the fleece is wet and the ground is dry I will know you are the Lord.’ Of course, God showed Gideon that He is who He says He is. But Gideon was still unsure! So he asked God for another sign-another little miracle. Gideon asked God to do the opposite…’let the fleece be dry and the ground wet.’ And sure enough, in the morning the ground was wet and the fleece was dry!

The disciple Thomas was the same. He couldn’t believe that Jesus rose from the dead. Even though Jesus told them before hand that He would. Thomas needed to SEE in order for his faith to work. The example of Thomas isn’t in the Bible by any accident. It is there because many of us feel the same as he did. We will, at times, doubt. We will doubt that God is who He says He is, that He can do what He says He can do. Most of all we doubt WE are who HE says we are. And that’s OK. It’s normal. It’s ok as long as we don’t stay there.

My friend, our faith needs to be an active one. We need, even in our times of doubt and struggle-actually especially at those times, seek Him in His Word. Find out what His Word says about what we are going through. I am so thankful for technology. I love to Google things. I’ll Google; Scripture on Hope, Love, Finances, Speech, etc…Then I open my Bible and read-not just those pieces of scripture-but the entire sections that they are in. As unrealistic as it may seem to someone that is not a Bible reading Christian-the Bible can and does give us instructions on our lives. And the more we read it the more capable we become to be able to hear God’s voice. It’s kind of hard to recognize a voice you’re not used to hearing. The best way to learn His the voice of God is through His Word. We learn exactly who He is through it.

It’s Ok at times to question God like Gideon did. To ask Him for confirmation on a situation. We just want to be careful to not have a need to do this for every single decision we make on a daily basis. Like a child that goes from crawling to walking-we need to be growing in our faith walk with God. And at those times that we feel like a Doubting Thomas-get into His Word, speak with fellow Christians who can lift you up.

I know that right now I feel a bit like this myself. Between the Women’s ministry and Bible study-which I truly love to do and feel called to do and my job…part of me feels completely incompetent. But God is also telling me in my heart that those feelings are NOT reality. Reality is-I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who gives me strength and that His will for me is to prosper. Amen!

God is good! ALL the time!

In HIS precious name.



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