Needing Help, Relying on God, Relying on Others

I’m Done

2:13“This Good News tells us how God makes us right in His sight. This is accomplished from start to finish by faith. As the Scriptures say, “It is through faith that a righteous person has life.” Romans 1:17

Have you made a New Year’s Resoultion for 2018? If so, how’s it going so far? Whether it is going to the gym, eating better, drinking less, not cursing, being nicer, etc….Whatever your’s may be, it’s usually very difficult to keep them. If I were a betting woman, I’m not-but if I was, I would bet that most New Year’s Resolutions have already gone down the drain.

For me, I didn’t do one this year. I’ve tried for too many years and I’m tired of failing. It’s not to say that I don’t need to make some changes. I need a lot. In fact, and I’m sorry to say this, I was put on blood pressure medication this week. I fully believe it all has to do with my weight. I’ve gained a lot over the past five years. I’ve been on diet after diet. I have all the cook books and on-line trainings. And let’s not forget all the exercise videos.

I have all the equipment and knowledge I need to lose weight and get healthy, so what’s my problem?

I’ve been doing it all on my own.

I have a bad tendency of doing that. Of thinking I’m smart enough or strong enough to get everything on my ‘to do list’ done alone. I don’t know if I should be glad or sad…but I realized this week…I just can’t.

What I’ve really realized is that I’m tired. I’m tired of trying. Tired of trying to put everything on my own shoulders. It makes me think of how so many women will carry ten shopping bags into the house all at once rather than make more than one trip to and from the car.

I think it’s a deep need to please everyone. That’s been a cycle of mine for a long time. When I was younger I would display this by buying friendships. I’d always offer to be the one to pay for the movies, dinner or whatever it was we were doing when hanging out. They didn’t ask, I insisted. And it took me a while to realize, it doesn’t work.

To be honest, writing this down is a bit of a ‘reality check’ for me. I’ve gone from one display of this issue to another.

OK, OK..I’m saying it. I can’t do it all!

I can’t manage my eating alone. I can’t carry the worry I have for those I love by myself.  I can’t make all decisions on my own about work or finances. I can’t say YES to everyone anymore.

I’m done.

So what’s my choice then? Relying on people? Eeek! That’s more than a bit scary for me. I’m comfortable doing that only if I KNOW that they are capable of handling whatever the situation is.

Don’t we do that all too often? We won’t trust others with some of the weight of our life issues so we do things all on our own and wonder why we fail. We not only fail, we try to play the blame game. It’s someone else’s fault that we’ve failed. Someone or some situation upset us or failed us- so ‘that’s why’ we…. fill in the blank.

Yeah, I’d love to place the blame somewhere else but it’s all with me. You see, we weren’t created to do things on our own. We are to carry eachother’s burdens (Galatians 6:2) and care for eachother’s practical needs (Romans 12:13).

We were meant to rely on eachother and on God. That’s my goal this year. To learn to rely on others more and to rely on God every day. I’m going to rely on God to help me eat better and be more active and I am going to rely on others to help me with ‘life issues’.

How about you? What’s your goal this year? Who will you be relying on?

Praying for God’s blessings on you this New Year- in the name that gives us HOPE, JESUS!

Tara

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